Kara's road lead by Him

Take care little ice cream

2011-09-18T01:08:00.004+08:00

Stupid me,

how can I be so careless and did not realize....

i should have known it earlier....

so sorry friend

i am very sorry for didn't realize it earlier....

u must take care ya....

be strong....

although u r not a Christian,

but i still say it to u...

God bless u, He always will and also ur love ones...

U must take care ya....

u can tell anyone of us anytime...

dont keep all inside ur heart...

we are 1419 friends

all of us still here with you ya....

always remember that ya little ice cream

all the best in ur exam....

dont push urself too hard....

有你在-吴建豪

2011-08-13T23:11:00.001+08:00

just like this song the first time i listen to it :)

太多话哽在我胸怀
还倔强不要你陪伴
来不及证明的未来
会在哪为了我等待

有你在牵手就能取暖
有你在拥抱就能勇敢
如果时间倒转有你在
你不喜欢的我会改
有你在平凡就不平凡
有你在遗憾就能美满
如果生命重来我坦白
你会懂我的爱

当秘密被真心解开
当伤害我全都明白
带回来回忆很期待
只有你不能被替代
有你在牵手就能取暖
有你在拥抱就能勇敢
如果时间倒转有你在
你不喜欢的我会改
有你在平凡就不平凡
有你在遗憾就能美满
如果生命重来我坦白
你会懂我的爱

有你在

有你在

如果时间倒转有你在
你不喜欢的我会改
有你在平凡就不平凡
有你在遗憾就能美满
如果生命重来我坦白
你会懂我的爱

Remember when 2 cat type sis were in kampar??

2011-04-04T21:01:00.012+08:00

remember there is a certain time in ur life

u feel so down, so unhappy

when u needed a word of encouragement from ur lovely friends?

this is what a dear sister gave me

it seems to be a normal McD pack-away

but when i received it

i got so surprised and happy

totally never expected it lo

this dear sister even added a piece of note ( long encouragement note)

it felt so warm and touched when a friend, especially a lovely friend

gave u encouragement not only in words,

but she put it in action too!!

she even drawn a lil lioness at the side, representing fighting energy from her??

maybe....hahaha....

u wrote in the start saying that it is a simple caring??

nope!!

it is a super caring to me!!

u always said that i cared about u....

u cared about me lots too ya!!

miss those moments we were in kampar!!

where we can meet more often lo

when i received this encouragement gift last time

i really have wanted to post a blog post

but u know me

i am not so good in expressing myself

so i just kept on let that thought in my mind until now

i just want to tell u

my dear lovely Lioness Shirley sis:

Love u so much!!!

and again i want to thank God

for letting me to know this wonderful and like to shout when excited friend!! :)

Shirley sis

u know u r this special type of person??

now u know :)

feel glad that u like the lion cute clip

that is the only thing i can do lo

coz i m so far away now :(

too bad

but i know

cat type sis love will last!!

* whenever i write post in the middle

it means that it is something special*

* pics taken from Google search

CF Easter Night Presentation: Are You Still Waiting?

2011-04-02T01:00:00.004+08:00

saw this video from Chang En's fb post

thx guys for uploading in youtube n fb so the rest not in cf (like me) can watch it too!!

i like the ending of the story, felt warmness in my heart :p

great story and CF-ers must have put in lots of effort and somemore now is the busy moment right??

great!! well done CF Kampar!!

too bad i couldn't go and watch it myself...

miss cf lots....my 2nd home in kampar.....

a place that is comfortable and relaxing.... can be who you are, just be you....

a place for bible study, learn more about God, gather together and it is full of love!!

whenever i ran away,

God grabbed me back

told me that i can lean on Him

hold onto Him whenever i am weak, whenever i needed help

He is there....always!!

just like the song: Never Give Up On Me

song lyric:

Time after time you've been left behind
Like the sun when it's starting to rain
Time after time you've been forgotten
Like a picture that's faded with age
Time after time you ran after me
When I was still running away

You never give up on me
No, You never give up on me
Though I'm weak you are strong
You told me I still belong
No, you never, never give up on me

Time after time I've used your grace
As a way to do what I please
I've taken for granted prayers that you answered
Never been all I could be
You are holding out your hands
And now I clearly see

You always erase all my mistakes
You lift me up when I'm down
Through all the ages, Your love never changes
You welcome me just as I am

Never give up, never give up on me...

Lyrics taken from : http://www.lyricsty.com/josh-bates-never-give-up-on-me-lyrics.html

第二步

2011-02-23T21:06:00.002+08:00

选择踏出第二步

没第一步来得犹豫和害怕

反而自然可以表达心里想的

这样就好了

可以了

Lil update

2011-02-15T23:32:00.004+08:00

CNY for this year is similar with previous years

just that i spend more time in house watching tv programs

but after CNY is different

coz i started working on Feb 5

which means i have worked for a week now

it was really nervous during the first day of work

but guess what

i met my primary school friend who is also my mentor

we did not meet for 10 years!!

felt shock and happy to meet her again at the same time

thank you God as He has lead the way step by step

for having friend and people who are patient mentoring me in my first work

so here is my lil update

time to sleep

bye

Christmas Party + last CF meeting

2010-12-01T03:08:00.001+08:00

attended Christmas Party on 25 Nov (exactly one month before Christmas)

it was at EDK3

i liked the performance although i just saw a small part of it only

i believe that all CF members have been practicing hard for it

so glad that i can be there too!!

met many CF members again at that night!!

say hi, have fun, help around and smile :)

these are what i like

found my laughter and joyful feeling back through this party by meeting and getting around with members and non-members in the van! (being the noisiest :p )

thx CF kampar for the Christmas Party!!

CF tonight is the last CF meeting for this sem and also for me....

ah....think abt it make me feel sad....

gona miss CF so much :(

thx for the prayer, song and cake ya CF Kampar!!

during the prayer, i can feel the power from the hands...wwwee!!

then went for yumcha session and did something funny...hahaha

aiyoyo...i better don talk la or else it will turn to be words that i did not expect...hehe

oh....next time must try roti salad at Haji Ghany...nice lo!!

gona join High School Musical (flashmob) this Thursday at Block C Cafeteria...expecting expecting :)

I give up!!

2010-11-01T23:36:00.008+08:00

you all think that you all are disappointed with me

but do you all know that i am disappointed with myself as well?

when both of u said u r very sad abt me, very disappointed with me, want to give up on me because i did not listen to ur advice....

i felt so hurt, not because of what u all said but because i have hurt u all, i have caused disappointment on u all!!

do u know that i am feeling afraid??

do you know that i have this strong feeling of throwing and tearing all the things here

just dump everything to the rubbish bin!!

leave here and just go away

go away from here

i do not want to continue anymore

i just cannot do anything right!!

u are right

i am going to church

but i did not change

why would i go to church!!

is not that i am giving up of going to church!!

i am just giving up on myself edi!!

i do not know why

disappointed with myself because i just could not change all the bad attitudes of mine

i felt very disappointed with myself also, not only you all!!

can i just go away??!!

i do not know how to continue anymore

i do not know whether i am able to face the sign from God and do my one last chance for now!!

i feel like just escape, can i just escape from here??!!

i felt sad and tired with my bad attitudes, my bad results and all my bad everything!!

i know one day u all will give up, but do u all before that, me myself already give up??!!

i do not know whether i will graduate??

i do not know what i will be for my future!!

i do not what i have studied for past 3 years plus!!!

Father in heaven, sure You are disappointed with me also right??

sure You are tired of seeing me again and again in this situation, so many times in these 3 years

maybe i should say every sem??

Lord, why You place me here??

Lord, why You lead me to choose this course??

Lord, why You choose me??

Father,

i am tired of being a bad me

bringing only disappointment, sadness, failure to people and all things around me

do not have the determination on the things which You have put into my life, the challenges

lack of independence, lack of discipline, lack of everything!!

just life and studies, i cannot manage them well

how can i manage Your things well in eternal life??

Lord, what is my future on earth??

i just saw darkness

i cannot change, why???

when others become Christian, they will turn into a new person

turn into a new leaf

but why cant i be the same??!!

why cant i turn into new leaf too!!

Burden

2010-10-31T22:46:00.003+08:00

sometimes i felt like telling out or expressing my feelings out dont seem to be able to lessen the burden

and i dont like the feeling of troubling anybody else with my burden

i am scared

i dont want to face the reality but reality hits me hard

i do not know whether i can really do it

i do not know myself if i have the patience

the feeling of escaping from all these is in my mind again

running away is always what i think

i know, it is an awakening sign from Him

that i should learn from my mistake

i m in the middle of road junction

i know where i should go

but

i just cannot step forward

神的孩子 (现在我的Mixpod播着的歌)

2010-09-22T19:39:00.004+08:00

詞曲：曾毓蘭

神的孩子不要沮喪舉目向上望

神在天上不分晝夜時時看顧你

雖遇艱難雖有愁苦仍在祂手裡

祂必叫萬事互相效力使你福杯滿溢

不要看環境不看自己凡專心倚靠祂的必重新得力

每個禱告神都垂聽千萬別放棄永遠不要忘記你要忠心走到底

神的孩子不要沮喪舉目向上望

神在天上不分晝夜時時看顧你

雖遇艱難雖有愁苦仍在祂手裡

祂必叫萬事互相效力使你福杯滿溢

不要看環境不看自己凡耐心等候祂的必如鷹翱翔天際

神的孩子在主愛中得想祂安息永遠不要忘記你是神所愛孩子

黑暗中的亮丽 (Beauty in Darkness in Eng)

2010-09-19T17:32:00.005+08:00

Hi guys, wana go to this event?

My dad and his friends are from 吉隆坡盲人团契布道会，they are organizing this event!!

The details:

黑暗中的亮丽 (Beauty in Darkness if translate to Eng)

Date : 25 Sept 2010

Time : 8pm

Venue : 金宝卫理公会，Kampar Chinese Wesley Methodist Church

the event is after all the exams,

so if u wana join, tell me ya!!

ak ouk

2010-08-27T00:38:00.001+08:00

ak ouk

a deep secret that i thought i will keep it til the end revealed tonight

anyway

we had fun rite?

thats the most important

yeay!!

♥ Love ♥

2010-07-28T03:37:00.006+08:00

在人群里,
缓缓的坠入谷底,
看到黑暗,
感觉到寂寞。

可是,
主,
您有双大大的手,
把我支撑着,
不让我再坠下去。

慢慢的,
将我抬起，
让我有勇气的再度站在人群里。

让我学习感恩，而不是抱怨
让我学习珍惜，而不是放弃
让我学习一点一点的，怎么成为一位“朋友”
teach me to follow your 2nd greatest commandment:
and a second is like it, you shall love your neighbor as yourself (Matthew 22: 39)

love is the greatest among all,
we should give love,
as it is said in bible:
so faith, hope, love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love (1 Corinthians 13:13)

love is something abstract, we cant touch, we cant smell, we cant taste,
we can only feel it, appreciate it and say thanks to God for the love!!

爱的翅膀- 马来西亚艺人之家［众星园］Star Park

2010-07-24T19:05:00.005+08:00

爱的翅膀

没有他在身边
找不到方向
我没有起点
终点失去方向感
烟草啤酒陪我
渡过了孤单
只甘心堕落
因为自己不能干
很疲惫很自卑
没有出路使我狼狈
走到尽头恍然想起
奇迹的宿光
再寻找天涯海角
希望找到终点的宝
期待生命
有他陪着我一起翱翔

Hallelujah
生命已找到了新的方向
不再迷惘
也不需要回过去的悲伤
在这地方
我找到了那真爱和希望
也已不再回头望

Hallelujah
靠他的能力往梦想飞翔
不再彷徨
因他会一直守在我身旁
在这地方
能让我洗掉心灵的忧伤
我戴上了爱的翅膀
勇敢向未来飞翔

解铃人还需系铃人

2010-07-15T00:19:00.007+08:00

i thought something was so wrong

but now i know

everything is just ok, is just fine

i was the one thinking too much after all these years

can start all over again?

but this time is in HAppy and joyful mode

coz tired of being sad + emo for nothing

ignore what was in the past coz it had past

to someone i mentioned earlier, let's just be friend all over again!

Be grateful always

2010-07-10T20:37:00.005+08:00

when seeing few close friends and listening to the words of caring
i will drop tears easily
because i know they care
because i know they will listen
because i know they will be there no matter what happens

when i see Shirley
i can just easily can say out my feelings and things that bother me
at first i do not want to tell
sorry ya
for taking your time
and thanks for understanding too

these are meaningful words from Fruit Basket:
A person's admirable qualities.
They're just like a pickled plum on a rice ball being stuck to their back.
So, all over the world, you could have rice balls made with all sorts of wonderful ingredients, all different flavors, shapes and colors, but since they'd be stuck in the middle of everyone's back, someone could have a plum and not even know it!!
They'd look at themselves and think, "I'm so plain. Nothing but white rice," even though it isn't true.
Because when they turn around and sure enough- there it is!
So if someone jealous of somebody else, well then probably because it's easier to see the plum on someone else' back than it is on your own!

People will get hurt easily
little actions, certain manner, certain words will just hurt without you realizing it
people will tend to be jealous and wanted to be like the other person whom they think that they are better
we can learn the good side of others but that does not mean we have to be exactly like them
because we are who we are!

In life
we will learn and be better person gradually
we will meet different people
we will be knowing many things
of course meeting unexpected challenges too

So,
let us take the challenges in life and move on coz we cannot just stay there
and be grateful always for everything that He has arrange for us in our lives

deleted everything

2010-06-30T01:12:00.003+08:00

i dont know whats wrong
maybe i am too tired
after 2 years+ and i dont wana continue on like this
i chose to delete everything
no connection btwn me and u....totally....

i dont know how things is will turn out to be
will my action makes things to get worse or it will just cool things down,let return to normal where we can talk and chat again like last time??
i know
it is just my fantasy...it will never happen again...

i believe something went wrong
so wrong till we never chat or talk again...never a word...
and i just so regret i chose to step out...maybe i should have let things as they are now rather than trying to change them...it will just make things worse...i guess so...

after all the things i have done
if i continue to be the way i am now, i am speechless...
Lord, i wana end this weird feeling
i wana end this as it is suppose to end long ago...

last 2 posts + this post
3 different emotions...all related to one matter...
yeah...maybe my feelings are mix up already...

purpose of my life
i need get hold on it
ad get more new purposes

kara放下了。

2010-06-26T14:28:00.003+08:00

自认为最艰难的那一步，
以为做不到
终于踏出去了

很多事情，想象中那么难，也许过了一些时间，慢慢学会放下
我也过得够久了，再拖也没意思

并不是不记得
只是
选择忘记
两年多的犹豫
kara放下了。
发现只有前一句有句号吗？
因为真的是句号了
不用在回忆里徘徊了
没答案并不是没答案
只是一直任由自己的执著带着走而已

谢谢你们的勇气

to someone

2010-06-15T01:10:00.004+08:00

To a friend who will never read this post:

i thought that everything is just going fine with you

until i saw your status update

do u know that i read your blog, privately, hidden??

coz i still dont have the courage to add u in my blog

coz i still dont have the courage to ask how are you

i dont even have the courage to say hello

in your blog, you are a different person

wish not too see sad post of you anymore

maybe i am still not ready to face you

although we might be seeing each other online but we are just silent

for sometime, you are still here, somewhere inside

no matter what

you will be in my prayer

i will pray that everything will be ok with you soon

pray that God will be with you always and pray that you will know Him one day

take care, friend...

cant feel the peacefulness

2010-05-20T01:44:00.002+08:00

yeah

i m back to my 2nd home

it is quiet lo coz most students are back for holidays

although it is quiet

but i cant find the peacefulness in me

maybe i have not really set aside time for God??

gosh

feel just so uncomfortable and stress up

will things be settled the way they should be??

donno why

i just cant feel peace in me

keep on avoiding by doing the other things that i should not be doing now

心情就是很烦闷

怎么办。。。

思念

2010-05-12T16:33:00.003+08:00

思念，好像平静的湖面，却有一丝的涟漪

它总是看是温柔，可是却不停的缠绕着湖面

总有一天，那湖面，会恢复以前的平静

就像树叶，总有一天会枯萎

就像雨水，总有一天会停止

一切，总会结束的

也许

假期了

有了空闲时间

想东想西

emo emo

2010-05-05T19:20:00.003+08:00

friends mentioned earlier
we learned from mistakes
but the problem is
how many mistakes do we have to make before we can really change

i am repeating the same stupid mistakes again and again
i dont know how to change
i have learned
i have known the consequences as i am facing now
but when can i really change
a question to myself

i look on myself
realizing there were so many mistakes in me
so many bad things about myself until i dont feel liking myself anymore
i hate this feeling

emo emo
this is the feeling i have now
damn!!

gonna let go of this emo feeling
or else
i will not have the mood to study

having exams these few days
last paper on this friday
one more to go
gambateh to myself and friends

the 110th post

2010-04-22T01:15:00.001+08:00

first time posting 3 posts within one day

it is the 110th post of my blog

now i am using blog more often to express myself...unlike before...

i think my previous blogs din even last for a year...haha...

first...gonna thanks Shirley for praying...thx sis!!

i am ok now....

well..

this is post is about HAppiness

met Anne just now

we had a sweet chat

and i realized that we have a thing in common!! yeay!!

i am so HAppy to hear that...

To Anne:

hey gal...

maybe u din realize this...

do u know that u light up my night...midnight actually...haha...

coz i was feeling bit down and i do not want to disturb my friends as i know they are real busy too..

maybe i just need someone to talk to...

so glad that i met u and had a nice chat..

too bad both of us hv 8am class..or else can chat longer...

after like 2 years+ we din meet up...

eventhough we are just staying nearby...how can this happen??

oh...just felt so HAppy...

take care ya sis...

gambateh for ur final ya...

nx sem...sure we will meet up!! cant wait for it~~

*i found my HAppiness back...yahoo ^_^

A prayer of change

2010-04-21T12:17:00.000+08:00

Father in heaven,

You told me what my problems are

You let me see the consequences because of my problems

things have gone bad to worse...

and i do not want it to get even worse than now

Father,

please help me to initiate changes

please give me the strength and determination to continue to change although there may be difficulties

please guide me through along the way

i need Your guidance

take me and mould me

change me to be the person that You want me to be

i surrender everything to You

Amen

i am a bad person...

2010-04-21T11:21:00.005+08:00

do i really do what i said that i will do....no!!

do i really care for more people as i have said....no!!

so what is the point saying with no actions??....

hate it!!!

damn....

i am really a self-centered aka selfish person??...ya...i think i am....

i will only bring emptiness to people around me...

i am a bad person....real bad...always bad...

after all that i have been through in this sem

the most important thing i realized i m seriously lack of: self-discipline n self-management

because of lacking in these two things....all the other things got worse and will get worst if i continue on like this!!

good websites for both things:

http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/2005/06/self-discipline/

http://www.lifehack.org/articles/lifestyle/12-rules-for-self-management.html

sorry....for certain matters....i realized that it is too late to know the problem at this moment..

things which have started of with one wrong step

or when i continue to move on in a wrong path

it is too late...there is no turning back..

saying many "sorry" will help??...no...it will not turn things into better condition anymore...

转帖 (from facebook): 你有没有这样的一位「後台朋友」？

2010-04-08T16:23:00.002+08:00

这是一篇非常好的文章，因为我们都已社会化深了，

所表现出来的都是想要别人羡慕的一面，
不好的都只想沉默或暗自忧伤，夜深人静时真的需要好好想想，

不论是最亲密的配偶也好、知心朋友也罢！

你所交的朋友中是否有这种人呢？

你有没有一个属於自己的『後台朋友』?

莎士比亚说：「人生如舞台。」

人有前台，也有後台。

前台，是粉墨登场的场所，费尽心思，化好了妆，穿好了衣服，

准备好了台词，端好了架式，调匀了呼吸，一步步踱出去，

使出浑身解数；该唱的，唱得五音不乱；

该说的，说得字正腔圆；

该演的，演得淋漓尽致；

於是博得满堂彩，名利双收，

然後踌躇满志而回。

然而，当他回到後台，脱下戏服，卸下妆彩，

露出疲累而饥黄的脸部，

後台有没有一个朋友在等他，

和他说一句真心话，道一声辛苦了，

或默默交换一个眼色，这个眼色，

也许比前台的满堂彩要受用、而且必要！

人有没有这样的朋友，很重要。

後台的朋友，是心灵的休息地。

在他面前，

不必化妆，

不必穿戏服，

不必做表情，

不必端架子，

可以说真心话，

可以说泄气话，

可以说没出息的话，

可以让他知道你很脆弱、很懦弱、很害怕。

每次要走出前台时都很紧张、很厌恶，

因为你确知後台朋友只会安慰你，

不会耻笑你，不会奚落你。

况且，在他面前你早已没什么形象可言了，

也乐得继续没形象下去。

人生有一个地方，有一个人，

在这人面前，

可以不必有出息，

可以不必有形象，

可以暴露弱点，

可以全身都是弱点，

这是很大的解放。

有此解放，人乃可以在解放一阵子之後，

重拾勇气，重披戏服再次化妆，

端起架子，走到前台去扮演该扮演的角色，

做一个人模人样的人物，

博得世俗的赞美，获得功成名就的利益。

话虽如此，後台朋友并非任何人随处可以找到。

亲如夫妇，往往还不能成为「休息地」，

这可视为人的弱点不堪披露。

可见人无论生死，都很难找到「後台朋友」，

因为他太珍贵了。

那你呢？有没有这样的一位「後台朋友」？

the 3rd week

2010-04-01T15:56:00.006+08:00

perhaps

i was expecting something

something great that will bring huge impact and change my life

perhaps

i was too free

too free to think of things

that lead me to negative thinking

that weaken me

that pulled me away from Him

i was questioning

what is His plan for me

what is my next step

what is my future

what will i be

what should i do now

how should i live on

how can i be a better person

how can i be a useful person

how can i be a caring person that cares for others

how can u help brothers and sisters around me

i even questioned

what are the capabilities i have

what are the advantages of me

how He can use me in this world

i was blur

i was lost

i felt that i have no direction

i felt that i need guidance

i felt so weak, useless....

like what i mentioned in my previous post

these 3 week are hard for me

i got weaker and weaker when i faced problems

i was being drawn away, maybe, by satan

i had negative emotions that caused me to be so down

i m glad that i m drawn back to Him again

have faith in Him, trust Him fully with all my heart

please call me, lead me, guide me and walk beside me

i need You in my life

special thanks to sister:

Jialing : thanks for being my listener and helping me everytime i had problem, sparing ur time for me although u r busy

Wendy : thanks for being by my side, supporting me and offering ur help although u hv ur own probs too

Shu Ern: thanks for praying for me, it helps. at that time, i was blur, i don know how to tell out

Melody : thanks for being my listener, encouraging me and spending time for me although u r tired. what u said to me, the possibilities...they r true, i think...

Shirley : thanks for calling many times. sorry i cant get the calls. thanks for ur msg and care as always. love u chiligirl!! be more careful next time, look at the floor before steppin it and hv enough rest...maybe u r too tired these few days...

thank u so much!!

i m ok now

i m fine

i will not think of those things and have good rest

take care friends ^_^

* wish to smile at the moment i open my eyes, smile before i close my eyes to have sleep at nite

no more insomnia plz....i wan to have good rest....

* refresh and think back of the day before sleepin at nite

everyday is a learning day and i m gladful n thankful for each day of my life!

let's get some rest

2010-03-27T22:53:00.007+08:00

i guess most of us are tired

including me

so,

let's get some rest before we move on

*found this pic from web

midnight

2010-03-26T03:35:00.004+08:00

i like the peacefulness and quietness of midnight

feel much more comfortable during midnights

of course...with the cooling midnight breeze...like it....unlike the hot air breeze durin noon (that is terrible!)

conclusion: i just like midnights

cycled to MM2 and had supper (aka yamcha...hahaha) with friends

then cycled around the residential houses and to the lake side too....

felt nice & calming as well....i was yawning but i am not sleepy...

luckily no more stomache at night....

was suffering from it last 2 days....haiz...

-kara- wants to sleep now....tata...

你--淡淡的思念

2010-03-25T02:05:00.002+08:00

也许

你早已知道

所以

才会有联络方式

却彼此都没联络

也许

当中有太多的事情

我不知道

才造成现在，这两年都这样

可是

一切都不重要了

最重要的

是要放下你

而不是记起你

愿我能尽快做到

我一定要在今年做到！！

this week

2010-03-19T01:49:00.003+08:00

i found out that i hv posted 100 posts in my blog...

thats a lot to me...as i din update my blog that frequent

this week..

is indeed a challenging week for me

not only complete things: assignments + midterms

but also personal issue

realized that i was getting weaker and weaker whenever facing problems and challenges

i felt as if i lost the courage that i should have to face issues...especially issue abt myself..

when i got to know more mistakes n weakness of myself....it was not easy...

talked to my friend just now

she explained and encouraged me

i am better now

after talking and praying

thanks...

i know

i need to be strong

to face the future challenges await me ahead

i need to have faith...not lossing it no matter what

pray so that things will be getting better

change and bcome better person...that is the purpose...

remember what my friend said before

blog

is where i can express myself...

so in the future...i will be writing more in my blog...

I need concentration....

2010-03-18T00:16:00.004+08:00

I wonder why

I just cannot concentrate what I should be doing

I have been telling myself: u need to do now....

I know

there is not much time left

we have to do so many things in a short time

assignments due date & there is still one mid term left to go

I have not finish & I have not study yet

plus, one kempen on week 11

and there is still FYP to be worried about

since there are so many things

so, why cant I concentrate on my things then

blaming myself for not concentrating....

I don wana repeat my mistakes again...never...

i need concentration....badly...

have been tellin friends to +u..

now i m telling that to myself...

+u...i m sure...i can do it...

now I m daughter of God

2010-03-15T10:05:00.001+08:00

I have accepted Christ in my life..

on 14 March 2010..

I will remember this day forever!!

now I m daughter of God~~

scared

2010-03-13T17:12:00.004+08:00

i m scared

i m afraid

i m worried

til i shivered on my own just now

i dono what i m really scared of

i told myself to calm down

i told myself to be strong

i prayed...

i dono how to overcome it

i just want to be alone

i feel so blur

i dono wat to do now

but i know i have a lot of things needed to be done

i felt so lost...

i m having headache now

was having it during noon itself

Lord, please give me strength and courage to move on with my life...

i m going to have mid term on monday

i still need to study

i cant continue on like this...

一点一点，一步一步

2010-03-12T11:04:00.001+08:00

只要一点一点慢慢的累积
久了
就一定会有收获

慢慢一步一步走
一定可以完成我的人生路途

Lord, i am tired

2010-03-09T01:59:00.002+08:00

i am tired

both physically and mentally

how would i so stupid....did the industry analysis for wrong companies...

need to re-do now...

as for another thing that bothered me tonight..

i think..

i wil post it nx time..

Lord, please give me strength and knowledge to continue with my life, assignments and mid terms...

please bless other students also so that they can have clear mind especially during mid term...

Amen..

为什么。。。。

2010-02-24T11:12:00.003+08:00

为什么。。。。

为什么总是在考试前

让我看到我不该看的，会影响我心情的

难道

真的要我删除你吗？

我舍得不代表我忘记了

2010-01-30T23:57:00.004+08:00

我舍得

不代表我忘记了

两年

长吗？不长

短吗？不短

那，两年的思念，不长也不短

是遗憾
是一个弥补不了的遗憾
就一直提醒着自己
自己是一直带着这个遗憾
不断的提醒着自己。。我有这样的一个遗憾。。所以才会导致我现在这样
也因为太记着
让自己无法释怀
使得不到的答案
让自己一直的徘徊着
不愿放

算了
有些事
既然让它不由自主的开始了
就让它，悄悄的结束吧

曾经这样想过
下雨，淋久了会生病
心雨，淋久了也会生病的
这次
想改变这句话
心雨，淋久了
的确，会生病
可是，病久了
它也学习了
不药而愈

我是微笑着的
写了这篇
以轻松的心情
不希望自己能够达成什么，
不希望会有什么结果，就让它，继续吧
放了的心情
就像突然解脱了
一切与你有关的事
也许
这就是想通了的力量

i have cleared my thoughts of it which is suppose to be cleared long ago

anyway

glad that i had finally get it through

it is a good start...my fren said so...ya indeed..

but it will not be going easily to let go of someone..

i believe i can do it somehow...

lastly, thanks dana

good luck for coming finals!!

i wonder if wil u c this post...haha..

心情。。。都在歌词里了吧。。

2010-01-24T01:16:00.003+08:00

心动-林晓培

有多久没见你
以为你在那里
原来就住在我的心底
陪伴着我的呼吸
有多远的距离
以为闻不到你的气息
谁知道你背影这么长
回头就看到你
过去让它过去
来不及
从头喜欢你
白云缠绕着蓝天
如果
不能够永远都在一起
也至少给我们
怀念的勇气
拥抱的权利
好让你明白
我心动的痕迹
过去让它过去
来不及
从头喜欢你
白云缠绕着蓝天
如果
不能够永远都在一起
也至少给我们
怀念的勇气
拥抱的权利
好让你明白
我心动的痕迹
总是想再见你
还试着打探你的消息
原来
你就住在我的身体
守护我的回忆

美人鱼-徐若瑄

我是一条没有人养的鱼
背着自由面无表情
彩色眼睛受伤的心
只有看到黑白的你
我像一条没有人养的鱼
我的悲伤你不在意
说过的话飘过脸颊
我无法挥去一切重新再来
舍不得我为什么说再见
能不能收回我说的每一句话
舍不得我为什么不忘记
做一条快乐美人鱼
你的温柔总是来了又去
我的孤单不稀罕同情
你的电话忍住不打
我不想变成习惯等你回来
游向幸福的大海里

雨爱-杨丞琳

窗外的天气就像是你多变的表情下雨了
雨陪我哭泣看不清我也不想看清
离开你我安静的抽离无人揭晓的剧情
我的泪流在心里学会放晴

听雨的声音一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸像雨滴渗入我的爱里
真希望雨能下不停
让想念继续让爱变透明
我爱上给我勇气的Rainie Love

窗外的泪滴一滴滴累积
屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆
真希望雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密让你去延续
我相信我就会看到彩虹的涟漪

looong time

2010-01-10T23:20:00.003+08:00

it has been a loooooong time i din update my blog

coz i dono what to update about

erm..the holiday is fine..

ooo....its gona end soon...

i wil be going back on 14,this thurs

hope can meet with li li,jialing n wei ling before i m back....

i found out about a website when i was reading a magazine earlier

http://pasim.wordpress.com/

its about promotions and sales in malaysia

includes warehouse sales, latest promotions etc

ooo...i missed the 1st malaysia chocolate fair...

anyway

can just click on it if u wana know about latest promos around you..

dats all for now

tata

a New Life

2009-11-24T01:44:00.005+08:00

FOR A NEW START!!
changed the layout for my blog
finally!! wrote description about myself and displayed it over here..
..after so long i hv been using this blog cz i dono what to write..it seems like i dono whats about me to write on..
changed from 'the life lead by kara' --> 'new life lead by kara'
and i even changed my profile pic to 2 lil cuties ^-^...

is back to a life she should be long time ago..after the camp that has really touch her n change her..she is still learning...one day she will be different..hope for that day to come..

this is what i wrote in my fb..

i wana live on life with God, a new life!!
a new life where i am still learning, accept my mistakes and i am still changing
as what my friend said earlier, transformation of christians are gradual, not immediate
ya,its true, it changes me part by part...

wana live my life to fullest everyday!! thats gona be a promise to be done..for myself..

went back last weekend..too bad..the time was so short..i can only meet up with Khanchna, a buddy i knew from secondary sch...

we went to times square..khanchna, my mom and i...

then only i realized that both our moms know each other...aiyoyo..swt...

well...suppose to use the GSC ticket i got from cf camp..but...forgotten abt it totally when i was paying.. cz my mind was full of: oh oh..there is not enough seats for movie 2012,how how?...

at last we decided to get ticket for A Christmas Carol at 9pm

after we have paid for our tickets..it is just 6 somehting..so we went to Gasoline to have our dinner...

this was the first time i heard the full story of my birth from my mom...through our conversation..

i believe a lot of my friends know that i was a prematured baby..i was born only at 6 months plus...i was so tiny as my body size was only the size of an adult's hand palm...my arm was only the size of my mom's thumb...

when i was a baby...i faced situations that can actually took my life...i cant imagine how i have been through all that and live on a life as it is now...all the blessings shown by God...

i cant imagine how much sufferings, difficulties and courage (for having such a tiny baby and raised me up til now)..everything that my grandmas, my parents had done for me since my birth..they are Great!! Thanks God that i am alive til now and live on healthily...God, please bless my grandmothers and my parents, bless so that they will live on healthily. In Jesus name i pray, Amen.

then, went for breakfast with Khanchna the next day at Shiok Cafe, YMCA...

i was late...real late..sorry ya buddy...

the breakfast was great...i had fries!!...haha..i love fries lo...i just love those unhealthly food....alamak..oh oh...(need to change this bad habit too..hehe)

we snapped pics...can check them out at my fb photos...

lovely buddy...c u soon when i m back!!..

as for today

went and "scared" Shirley...hahaha

well..its a surprise bday party for her..

at first it was just a plan by wendy,prisca n i..just the three of us..

then i met kah yee at new town...

at last 2 gang of us..'pakat' together...hehe

scarying shirley ---> it was a success!! hahahhaha

she was so so shocked!!

hope that u enjoyed the surprise party lo...

i am not good at praying..hope u dont mind...

Happy Birthday Gal!!! wish for all the best for you and may all ur wishes come true!!

God bless you...

thats all now...update when i m free next time...kinda late now..sleepy...tata..

recently

2009-11-05T09:59:00.002+08:00

in the process of changing

change.....just a little or a lot??

maybe u will realize it after seeing me in the future...

guess i wil be changing my email add...erm...for a new start...still thinking abt it...

starting from this sem,

i have been like:

1. happy!!

2. crazy!!

3. making mistakes!!!!!

more greetings with smile on my face lo...its great..sometimes..i may have other emotions, other things i have been worrying abt....so that y i am not smilling lo...sorry for that...

with smiles on my face...

it means that i am happy ^^

n it is right down from the heart... i can feel it inside lo...haha

being some sort of crazy these few days too!

think my frens around me realize abt it too

especially when i am talking through phone

all sorts of crazy ideas, words lah..bla bla bla...came out...

my frens..kinda swt too...paiseh lo...u all gona tahan my "craziness"...

its kinda fun too rite?

being crazy for some time

n spread those craziness around...hehe..

don ask me why...i m just getting crazy!! hahahaha

but,

another thing happened too... mistakes!!

careless, unthoughtful,totally blur...

haiz...i realize the mistakes i made only after that...swt lo...haiz...

gona tel myself dont make those mistakes again..n don make new mistakes too...

wonder i can do it not...being so careless these few days...

having mid term for Pengajian Malaysia later at 2pm...

gona cont study now

stop my "laziness" edi...

good luck for those who are having exams too!!

HAppy HAppy mood!!

2009-11-04T23:35:00.002+08:00

HAppy after hearing the news

its a good news!! Thx God!!

* to a great friend of mine:

i am so HAppy for you after hearing the good news!!

its a GOOD NEWS!! yeay!!

after everything you have been through..i cant imagine though..i hv no idea..

i am glad that this has happen, 雨过天晴咯！！

i am also HAppy for another reason too, u call me just to tell me lo..i din expect that..haha

i m so touched..i tot who was that lo..

HAppy again

(i seem a bit crazy edi..haha..hope u dont mind that..)

really gona work much more harder in the future ya...

take care, girl...

good luck & all the best in everything u r doing or pursuing..

RIP

2009-11-02T22:11:00.003+08:00

今早翻开报纸
看见的新闻是
3个金宝拉曼大学生去瀑布
被洪水冲走，去世了

相信很多人都很难相信
尤其是他们的家人和朋友

although i dont know any of you
may you all rest in peace
你们永远会在家人和朋友心中。。。

生命
可以如此短暂
也许这一刻
你还看得见对方
跟对方谈天，说笑话
下一刻
却是永别了

我们都要珍惜
现在的每分每秒
每个人
每件事

要好好照顾自己和注意安全！！

Please...

2009-10-27T23:30:00.003+08:00

i wanted to help so badly!!
do you need my help?
if yes, what can i do?
besides being by your side, support you, pray for you,
there is nothing else i can do..
i felt myself being so helpless..
i cant even bring more happiness to friends around me
i can see that
they are facing stress, difficulties, problems,
and yet i cannot do anything to fix it!!

is there any way i can help out?
how can i help you??
i cannot do anything
the only option is just wait
wait til the time comes and reveal everything..
hope my prayer will be answered
i want to hear about good news!
let me hear it please..

first week of Y2S3

2009-10-25T20:23:00.002+08:00

Finally, the short sem is here

had 2 trips in last sem break: cf camp n one-day-trip to ipoh & cameron

The first week of Y2S3

it was like....wow!!

full of "bombs"!!

and we have only 7 weeks...but it seems like we r havin 14 weeks....

E-commerce:
Wk2: Grp presentation

Wk3: Mid term

Assignment due

International Marketing:

Wk3: Oral Presentation

Wk4: Mid term

Pengajian Malaysia:

Wk3: Ujian 1

dono-when: Ujian 2

Wk5: Tugasan

as you can see

bz bz weeks ahead

had wonderful moments this week,

celebrate YKH's bday & TKD club BBQ party!

steambot, grill, bbq

gona lost my voice real soon...

and

the total big mistake i hv done

i lost the doc my grp has been working on for 3 hrs!!!

cry....cant recover it...tried so so many ways...yet...cant recover...

so the final story: i lost the doc...gona re-do....

sorry guys....

i din extract and save properly...

nvr repeat this mistake again!!

ok...gona start doing now....bye...

cf camp

2009-10-17T21:56:00.004+08:00

went to cf camp during sem break,
it was a 4 days 3 nights camp,
it was a great experience knowing many Christians from other campuses.
miss the camp,
although it was cold at the camp,
but it was fun and enjoyable,
i am so glad that i can join the camp!!
Thx guys!!
especially "Humble Giants" (my group, we won!!) ,
and also Shirley (for inviting me to join the camp)!!
the care and concern displayed by every members in the camp, although we may only know for one day or two
it has been deeply touch my heart,
it just felt...as though we are one family,
will never forget that.
still remember some of the funny things happened,
erm...my mistakes during the camp...hahaha
was shivering when i bath in the morning,
there was once, bath at 11pm something,
it was cold and my heater stop functioning half way....oh no...luckily it functioned later...

first time staying in a dorm,
suppose 18 people to a dorm,
since we have lesser people in the camp,
so there is only 14-15 people to a dorm,
its like..so many people in a room..hahaha

there is one funny thing,
some students dont know each other although from the same campus, especially my campus
we was like...huh? u r from my campus..swt lo...hahaha

when we were on our way back,
passed by theme park,
all the people from the bus was like 'i wana go down and play!!'
hahahaha
thx PPG for the food! hehe
oh,
miss the cold weather in genting,
it is hot in kl!!

although i dint go to many camps before,
but i felt, this camp really has united us, from different campus, different places,
we are there for one purpose!!
keep in touch ya!!
would like to join cf camp if i have another chance in the future!!

change your mindset

2009-10-17T21:55:00.001+08:00

思想轉換 - 心態的力量
The strength of mindset

转贴 : -

女兒向父親抱怨，事事都很艱難。
A daughter complains toward the father, everything is difficult.

她不知如何應付生活，好像一個問題剛剛解決，新的問題又會出現，她有些厭倦。
She finds it hard to cope with life, seem a problem just resolve, the new
problem appeared again, she was tired.

父親是一位廚師，把她帶進廚房。
Her father is a cook, bring her into the kitchen.

他先往三口鍋裡倒入一些水，然後放在旺火上。
He goes toward first to pour into some waters in 3 pots, then puts on the fire.

不久，水開了。
Soon, water boiling.

他往第一口鍋裡放一些胡蘿蔔，第二口鍋裡放入雞蛋，第三口鍋裡放入碾成粉末的咖啡豆。
He put some carrots in the first pot, put an egg into the second pot, put some coffee powder into the third pot.

20分鐘後，父親把火關了，把胡蘿蔔撈出來，放入一個碗內，把雞蛋撈出來，放入一個鍋內，然後把咖啡舀到一個杯子裡。
20 minutes later, father off the fire, take out the carrot. Go to the scond pot take out the egg, and then ladling up the coffee to a cup.

父親轉身問女兒：
The father turned to ask his daughter:

「孩子，你看到了什麼？」
'Kid, what do you come in sight of?'

「胡蘿蔔，雞蛋，咖啡。」她說。
「Carrot, egg, coffee」She say.

他讓她靠近一些，摸摸胡蘿蔔。
He lets her come closer to touch the carrot.

她注意到他它們變軟了。
She noticed the carot become soft.

父親又讓女兒拿一個雞蛋，打破它，剝掉殼，這是一個煮熟的雞蛋。
The father lets the daughter take the egg, breaking it, peel the egg shell,this is a cooked egg.

最後，父親讓她喝了一口咖啡。
Last, the father lets her drink a mouthful of coffee.

嘗到濃濃的咖啡，女兒笑了，怯聲問道：
Taste to the very thick coffee, the daughter smile, she asked:

「父親，這意味著什麼？」
'Father, what does this mean?'

父親說，三樣東西面臨同樣的逆境——煮沸的開水。
The father says three things face same adverse circumstances-boiling water.

但其反映各不相同。
But its reflection is not same.

胡蘿蔔入鍋前是強壯的、結實的，放進開水，它變軟了、變弱了。
The carrot, before put in to the pot, it is strong and hard, after putting into the boiled water, it become soft,become weak.

雞蛋原來是易碎的，薄薄的外殼保護著液態的內臟，開水一煮，內臟變硬。
The egg is originally crumbly, the very thin outer shell protects theinternal organs of the liquid, once the boiled water cook, the internal organs become hard.

粉狀咖啡豆則很獨特，進入沸水，它們便改變了水。
The coffee bean powder then is very special, entering boiling water, they changed the water then.

在艱難和逆境前，可以學胡蘿蔔、雞蛋和咖啡豆，可以屈服，
也可以變得更堅強——甚至，可以改變環境。
We can learn how carrot,egg and coffee bean react in the difficulties and adverse circumstances. They can accept defeat, can become stronger, and even can change environment/surrounding.

父親說：
The father say:

你改變不了環境，但可以改變自己；

Your cannot change the environment, but can change yourself;

你改變不了事實，但可以改變態度；
Your cannot change the fact, but can change an attitude;

你改變不了過去，但可以改變現在；
Your cannot change the past, but can change the present;

你不能控制他人，但可以掌握自己；
You have no command over others, but can control yourself;

你不能預知明天，但可以把握今天；
You can't predict tomorrow, but can hold on today;

你不能樣樣順利，但可以事實盡心；
You can't be doing smooth and well in everything, but can devote your best effort;

你不能左右天氣，但可以改變心情；
You can't change weather, but can change a mood;

你不能改變容貌，但可以展現笑容；
You can't change facial appearance, but can emerge with smiling face;

是的，心態有時比什麼都重要。
Yes, the mindset sometimes is important compares with others.

mindset can change a lot of things
we react for different matters using various of ways
sometimes, we thought that 'this is the best way how we can treat things'
but, we have forgotten,
instead of blaming
we can actually change our own thinking
think differently and u will get a total different outcomes

Hope the unhappy things that happen recently
no matter its about me or friends around me,
hope that they can search the correct path to lead on their life,
hope that they will be able to change their mindset when situation has been troubling them.

hope that things will change and get better soon,
dont let it be as it is now,
it is very true, we cant change the situation and others, but we can always change our mindset to a more positive one.

*missing few friends now,
let me see your happy faces when i meet u next time ya!!

我们..........

2009-09-25T11:06:00.003+08:00

没有用了...不值得了...一直以来都是...

你不曾...从来都不曾...

我们的纪念（歌词）

数不清的泪我又哭了好几回
幻化成蝶停留在这片落叶
被风化的雪埋藏在千年以前
我用尽一生的思念只为等着你出现

回忆渐渐凋谢落在我身边
唤不醒原来还跳动的画面

就让我留在轮回的边缘等一道光线
看见某年某月我们之间曾经说过的预言
就让他带走你的那瞬间成为我们的纪念
谁能发现我的世界曾经有过你的脸

数不清的泪我又哭了好几回
幻化成蝶停留在这片落叶
被风化的雪埋藏在千年以前
我用尽一生的思念只为等着你出现

-worried miao-

2009-09-24T00:27:00.003+08:00

worried for the last 2 papers
there r so so many things to remember+memorize
haiz....i scared i cant remember all lo....
these few days...totally not to wat i planned which is study
wasted lots of time on......i don know...jz not my studies....
thought of lots of things too....
feel like losing touch on many things.....

is it that hard to say "i believe"?....

jz hope things will b alright soon...
gona sleep now....

sometimes

2009-09-08T03:11:00.004+08:00

sometimes things can just happen in the next moment

sometimes things will just not go on as they are suppose to

sometimes things can just change without you realizing it

sometimes could not reach out those in need

sometimes mind is blank and do nothing

sometimes mind is full of thoughts til you cant figure out what you were thinking originally

sometimes emotional is uncontraollabe

sometines things may repeat too

sometimes, there r so many possibilities

sometimes, i have only negative thoughts and forgotten the good ones

sometimes, thoughts control my actions and not my heart

sometimes, i am not myself

for all these sometimes, please forgive me

busy+headache weeks ahead

2009-09-05T01:51:00.003+08:00

mentioned in earlier post that i will be having final exam for this sem starting next week
til now
just started a bit revision...how to sit for finals?...
dont have mood these few days
not only mood to study but other matters too
haiz....wonder whats wrong
have a feeling...just like there are so many unfinished things
ave ignored them earlier and seems like there is no time to do them right now
and my room was like...so messy...totally messed up by me....
anyway, settle for my finals
that is the priority now
just hope that i will be able to finish all my revisions on time....

-Good luck & gambateh for finals ya!!!-

final

2009-08-28T16:35:00.005+08:00

Final exam is coming soon

exactly 2 weeks from now

hvnt really focus on my studies

gona start studyin, really work on it lo...or else...my finals...screw up again...

Exam timetable:

11/9- Business Planning & Management

15/9- Operation Management

17/9- Entrepreneurial Skills & Business Ethics

26/9- Human Resource Management

28/9- Business Research

after these hard days...i will be free!!

cant wait for the sem break...but...can i choose not to sit for final?...scary lo...haha...was thinking too much...

going back to kl this weekend

c u guys when i m back ya

Hope that everything will be alright soon...

姐，对不起

2009-08-27T00:57:00.004+08:00

在你的生命中，是否遇到那么一个人？
你无时无刻都在期盼，无时无刻都在想念，但你们可能再也见不到了？
看着别人伤心的哭泣，心里其实是多么的沉重。
我也很难过。。
那一滴一滴的泪，滴在我手上，显得多么的冷，多么的重。
怎么了？好想问你。
你想他了。我知道。我该如何停止你心中的悲伤？
抱着你。你在颤抖。
你的无助，我懂。
但是，真的很对不起，我很笨，我不懂该如何减轻你的伤心。
就让我静静的陪着你。
别再哭了。他看不见。他听不见。
你的泪，很珍贵。
别掉了。

姐，

对不起，

让你担心了，

看到我流泪，

你写了这段。

我看了你写的，

可是我再次流泪。

我没想到，

我也让你难过了。

我真的很想发泄，

这阵子都想了，

只是，还没爆发而已。

我知道，

他不值得，

他听不见，也看不见，

我们甚至应该没机会见面了，

可是，我还是想念他。

出去走走时，

你试图让我开心，让我别再去想，

谢谢你。

别说自己笨，别说对不起。

我只要，当我感觉难过时，

知道有个人在我身边，

就算没说话，

静静的陪伴着我，

就够了，

有些事，

别人很难帮我，

就连我自己也帮不了我自己。

谢谢你，

你的陪伴，静静的，就足够了。

我知道你担心我，关心我，

那么久了，我也不知道了，

写着写着，我现在头很痛，

我真的不想再想他了，

能够那么久的想念，

我自己也服了自己。

这次，我希望是最后一次了，真的是最后了。。。

姐，我也希望你会快乐，

看到你，我也难过，

你面对困扰，我也帮不了你，

我只希望，只要，你开心，就可以了。

让自己快乐起来，真正的快乐，好吗？

做最自然的你。

让事情，发展的顺其自然吧。

一切，总会结束的

2009-08-26T19:27:00.003+08:00

出去走走

让我想到

你一定会拍这里的景象

这里的公园

可能你是第一个说要去公园的呢

也许你会想尝试这里不一样的东西

你又会有什么评语呢

或许

你会从这里学习到不一样，特别的东西和技术也说不定

你总会去创造不一样的

打破别人很难做的东西

你却能轻易的做到

环境会训练你变成不一样的人

希望你在哪里都变得快乐

不要和那时的你，有那么多的烦恼

不要对自己感到怀疑，坚持自己该坚持的

不要让身边的事物，轻易的影响你

Best wishes to you

这些都是写着关于他

一个，不再见面的他

思念，好像平静的湖面，却有一丝的涟漪

它总是看是温柔，可是却不停的缠绕着湖面

总有一天，那湖面，会恢复以前的平静

就像树叶，总有一天会枯萎

就像雨水，总有一天会停止

一切，总会结束的

谢谢你，姐姐

出去走走，让我想到了不一样的东西

自己应该做的，一早就该做的

我也希望你会快乐的

学习自己所要的

你也一定可以的

加油！！

不在这里的你

2009-08-26T18:21:00.003+08:00

很想念你，好多为什么，我也不知道自己是不是晓得答案

我不要再想你了

到底还要多久才能把你忘了

那一段时间

是我永远的回忆

虽然，感觉上我们也没什么

可是我会一直记得你

你曾经让我有一样特殊的感觉

可能只是自己的错觉吧

为什么我们会成了这样

你说过的话呢

你却没做到

但是最大的错，也是出现在我身上

我永远都得不到你

你走远了

不在了

希望今天是最后一次，为你难过了

我们的纪念，到这刻，记得了，也忘了。。。

-miao's happenings-

2009-08-22T01:10:00.004+08:00

Have a great lunch with Jialing (known her from foundation til now)

we were chitchatting from we order--> eat--> finish

after that went to her house to continue chit chatting...

felt like so many things to share...haha

then, til noon about 3 something...

we stopped and i went back as we were both tired of talking edi..

i felt very tired n sleepy...

my frens were like..huh?...have u ever heard anyone said tired after talking?

well...thats me...haha

its been quite some time i din talk this much edi...

thx Jialing for spending her time listening..hope i dint make her feel bored listening to all my stories...

She lend me a book: The Purpose - Driven Life by Rick Warren

the author trained over 350,000 pastors worldwide...wow...amazing rite?

its a guide to 40-day spiritual journey

it has 40 brief chapters

we are suppose to read a chapter a day

so that we will have time to think about the implications for our life

end of each chapters will have: a point to ponder, a verse to remember and a question to consider

its the 2nd day

so i have read til 2nd chapter

i may have different thoughts from others after reading...

still searching for answers that i wanted from the book...answers in my life..

hope i will get all the answers soon

guess wat, i woke up at 6+ in the morning today

well...need to register for next sem's elective subjects

will be taking international marketing nx sem...will i be in the same class with you Shirley?..haha..wondering

reached campus abt 7am...so sleepy....-sleepy miao-

there were students queeing up alreaday...so early...

guess they reach before 7...wow...

was listening to radio while waiting

others...busy chitchatting

heard that book fair will be held in KLCC from 22 Aug to 31 Aug (hope i din get it wrongly)

will be back to KL this weekend lo

yeay, i can go to the book fair!!!

gona buy lots of books...wonder will i read all lo?...erm..

wana learn more things from books, especially encouraging and inspirational kinda books

the new final exam timetable is out

but i cant c it..cz cant log in to the intranet...haiz..

if there is no difference in date

my finals for this sem start from 11 Sept and end on 28 Sept

will be back to hometown in between as there is abt a week to the 4th paper

jz saw Shirley's blog,

will pray for her friend who got blood cancer,

God, please bless her so that she can recover soon.

Pray for her too, whoever reading this post now.

- helpless miao-

2009-08-06T00:26:00.002+08:00

had a rehearsal for HRM assignment presentation,

my group is geeting much more serious as we are i year 2 now,

we had rehearsal that we have not did before before any presentation,

realized that i was getting too fast over my slides,

3 slides, complete less than 1 1/2 mins, a bit too fast huh?

the last practice for today,

went much slower, but has lost the "umph" n the spirit, my grpmates told me,

why people around me is keep on improving, but for me myself, i keep on declining in my performance?

why cant i grow and cope up with the others?

improve like the others?

feel so...dono....this has been happening for quite some time, this is not the only time it is occuring,

some how i cant, i just cant find the ways to improve...

i missed the time where i really relax, have the feeling of being able to settle everything no matter how bad it becomes,

and not being so helpless now...

it's week 10!!

2009-08-05T02:20:00.006+08:00

time flies

it is the week 10 of our study week

7 Aug- HRM assignment presentation

14 Aug- last assignment,BR due date

dono when- EN assignment presentation

4 more weeks to go n our sem is over,

then, ready to the final

a feeling of..time flies, even with or without you knowing it

how many time is there, still be there with us?

all the time and memories that we spend together?

how long more will they last?

got something from my family this morning,

what did mummy pass to daddy to bring for me on his way to ipoh:

1. fried noodles, miss mummy noodles a lot!! taste so greate!! the best noodles in the world!!

2. sliced chicken meats, sliced from cooked chicken

3. a small bottle of fried onion, fried by mummy too

4. swiss rolls, those mini swiss rolls packed in packets...love them!!

5. a small box of potato fries, it is from S'pore, given by daddy's fren, try it out later

6. biskut beras, i was suppose to take when i was back home last time

BIG THX to

Mummy, for the cooking + buying

Daddy , for bringing all the nice foods to me

LOVE YOU!!

P.S. Shirley, you are my best buddy too!! thx for the advice, concern n care. will always pray for u. take care ya!! happy+ good emo always ^^

- appreciate everything you have now and dont lose them!!-

给大学及学院生的忠告

2009-08-05T02:08:00.000+08:00

1.进入大学，你的所有过去对于他们来说是一张白纸，这是你最好的重新塑造自己形象的时候。

2.大学可能有真实的爱情，但只是可能。很多时候他们是因为别人都谈恋爱而羡慕或者别的原因而在一起。

3.你在大学有很多意外用钱的地方。为了你的家人和你自己的前途，永远别乱花钱。

4.你大学的朋友很可能就是你将来事业的一部分。他们会帮助你。但是你也应该让自己有能够帮助他们的实力，所以，你要努力。

5.很多事情当你再回忆时会发现其实没什么。所以，不管你当时多么生气愤怒或者别的，都告诉自己不必这样。

6.学习，永远不要忘记。如果你学习失败了，你就什么也不是，当然，也不排除意外，但问题是，你会是那个意外吗？

7.别说脏话，你应该知道习惯的力量。你随便的一个字或者几个字会让你在别人心中的形象大打折扣。

8.好好利用在公共场合说话的机会，展示或者锻炼。

9.别为你自己和别人下定论，这非常重要。你所看到听到的可能只是一面。

10.如果你发现很久了你一直是一个人去食堂吃饭或者去上自习，别在意，大学里一个人是正常的。

11..很多事情别人通知你了，要说谢谢，没有通知你，不要责怪，因为那些事情你其实应该自己弄清楚。

12.“我请你吃饭”之类的话永远不要乱说。

13.尊严是最重要的，但在大学里，要懂得利用这个空间锻炼自己，让自己的尊严有足够大的承受力。除了你自己，没人会为你保留它。社会是一个最喜欢打碎人的尊严的地方。

14.大学是亚社会，当你上了高年级后，要让自己有大人的形象，大一的孩子看到你，你要能让他们感觉到你是他们的学长，你很成熟。

15.你有足够的理由佩服每天早起的人，不信的话，你去做，做到后会发现有很多人在佩服你呢。

16.经常给家里打个电话。

17.你可以有喝醉的时候，但是你要明白和真正的朋友一醉才能让伤心事休，否则，你只会是别人的谈资和笑柄。

18.如果你三/四年内很少去图书馆的话，你就等于自己浪费了一大笔的财富。

19.不论男人还是女人，如果在大学里还把容貌当做重要的东西而过分重视的话，可能不会吃亏，但是早晚会吃亏。

20..新学期如果你接新生的话，当被问到学校怎么样之类的问题时，你要记住你不但是这个学校的一分子，你更要给学弟学妹带来信心，你走过大一，你应该知道那时候对学长的信任多深。

21.别迷恋网络游戏。千万别。永远别。

22.“我爱你”。别对很多人说这句话，在大学里，希望你只对一个人说，这是尊重你爱的人，更是尊重你自己的感情。

23.在大学里，你有足够的空间承受失败和打击，因此，你真的应该找找自信和自傲的区别，可以用一辈子的。

24.如果你的个性让很多人对你敬而远之，那么你的个性是失败的，个性的成功在于能吸引，而不是能排斥。

25.如果把上课不睡觉当做一种锻炼并且你做到了，那么，你将会很强。

26.学生会的主席之类的干部，如果你尊重他们，告诉你自己那是因为他们是你的学长而不是因为他们是你的上级。

27.别怕丢人，那是一种成功的尝试，不要笑话那些上台丢人的人。

28.从绝望中寻找希望，人生终将辉煌。

29.如果你不抽烟的话，你的精力将会比抽烟的时候好。

30.你的确要学会有心计，但是永远记住，要胜利的唯一的方法永远只是:实力。

31.面对不公平的东西，不要抱怨，你不如去努力奋斗，争取你自己最合适的公平。

32.人生百态，不要对新的看不惯的东西生气，无所谓的，比如说恋人同居问题，这和我们很多人无关。

33.记住:为自己设定一个远大的人生目标，并终生为之奋斗。

34..在大学里就开始训练自己的冷静力，这是一种能力，有大事时，能安静并能快速想出办法的人，很厉害。

35.大学的竞争范围是所有的大学生，所以，你知道是否敢放松学习。

36.大了，成熟了，稳重了，但是这和激情不矛盾，一种对工作和学习的冲击力及持久力会让你有特殊的魅力。

37.记住，即便你是学生会主席，如果你的四级没过，没有毕业证，仍然不会有单位想要你。单位需要的是工作的人而不是当官的人。

38.永远不要嘲笑你的教师单调，因为有一天现实会让你为这种愚蠢付出代价。

39.不要幻想自己能成为招聘会上的宠儿，很快你就会明白:百分之七十的初中生都可以上大学。

40.英语一定要学好。

41.你可以看不惯一些东西，但是你应该学会接受，如果你没法改变那一切的话。

42.对陌生人，或者把对方当做一张白纸，或者把对方当做你的朋友，总之别当做敌人，即使你听到再多的关于他(她)的不好的传闻。

43.爱你的人，不管你接不接受，你都应该感谢对方。

44.每个星期一定要抽时间出来锻炼身体的。好处多多。

45.如果有人嫉妒你，你可以把他从竞争者之列删除了。怀嫉妒之心者，难成大事。

46..别去争论，人不可能赢得争论，可以说，争论所提及的话题都是不值得去争论的。

47.成功的方法多种多样，别不接受你看不惯的方法。

48.男人，你长得可以不帅，但你这个人必须帅，而且，那才是真正的帅。(当然，女人也是同样的道理)所以，不必在穿着打扮上花太多心思。

49.别以为在学生会你能得到你曾经想要的。工作的热情很可能因为你所看到的所经历的一些事而改变。

50.文或武，你总要有一样。样样通样样松都是禁忌。样样通几样更通方是境界。

51.还能冲动，表明你还对生活有激情，总是冲动，表明你还不懂生活。

52.如果你不能拥有，那么告诉自己别忘记——如果你能承受那伤痛的话。

53.虽然班级的概念在大学并不明显，但是也别忘记，你的同学你的朋友。

54.准备考研，早点比晚点好。

55.别抱怨四级六级，那是证明你能力的很好的东西。

56.要有精英意识，考虑一下，大学的人了，迷恋武侠和言情，已经没有任何意义。

57.莫过于耿直，莫过于圆滑。外圆内方是一种视野，视野决定着境界。

58.大学的手机是否应该用只有自己有答案。

59.永远别渴望做个谁都不得罪的人，在反对和支持声中自己做出决定才精彩。

60.要有魄力，即使是失败，也不要让自己的人生平庸。

61.喜欢一个人，就勇敢地告诉他或者她。大学是学习的地方，但是我理解爱情的力量。

62.应该相信一句话:没有不可能的事情！只要去做。现在我们是学生，十年后呢？

63.不要总想是否能成功，既然选择，便当风雨兼程。

64.后悔，它是一种耗费精神的情绪，后悔是比损失更大的损失，比错误更大的错误。所以不要后悔。

65.我们确实活得艰难，要承受种种外部的压力，更要面对自己内心的困惑。在苦苦挣扎中，如果有人向你投以理解的目光，你会感到一种生命的暖意，或许仅有短暂的一瞥，便足以使我感奋不已。

66.每个人都有潜在的能量，只是很容易被习惯所掩盖，被时间所迷离，被惰性所消磨。

67..相信时间的力量，可以冲淡很多东西。

68.记住:目光要深远。你的目光看多远你就能走多远。

69.人生有很多次如果，但是，没有一次“但是”。

70.永远不要瞧不起大学里的贫困生。

71.在大学时代看看学校的招聘会吧，你会感觉到一种前途的危机。全是人，全是人，全是人……

72.越大，我们就会发现对与错越是那么不明显，这不是错，这是事实，而且无法改变。

73.记住结交每一个值得结交的朋友。

74.无聊的时候，别忘记朋友。朋友无聊的时候，别忘记你是他们的朋友。

75.如果你没有珍惜大学这三/四年，你一定会抱憾终生。

jz wana express myself...after 1+ years in kampar

2009-07-30T13:24:00.002+08:00

goin to have my last mid term for this sem tmr, stil fighting over here,
wish that i will fully understand and know how to answer the questions...
2 assignments due dates are on this fri too, last 2 due nx week n its all done!!!

--jz wana express myself, no offense--
it has been more than a year (exclude 3 months sem break) staying in kampar
i have been used to life here,
throughout these days, learnt a lot of things that will be so beneficial in my life for now and future
things have not been easy, passed through all those happy, unhappy, sad, emotional, angryn other emo here, all these memories will be with me...i still have more than a year to go...
there will always be things to learn each day, although it is just a very small matter, u will stil able to get something from it.
recently, i just got to know some sewing techniques, know the problem with me..pass the decision to others instead of me choose and decide what i really wanted to do...
there are still more problems with me that i still need to further improve myself
hope i will learnt and get every lessons in life..to be a really grown up..
sometimes, i do not realize the mistakes i have done,
sometimes, i do not want it to happen, i just cant control myself...
sometimes, i may be just so miserable,
sometimes, i am so in a bad mood..in a happy mood..
i hope for forgiveness for the mistakes, problems, havoc...all those terrible things that i have done..
hope for strength, courage and confidence in myself to continue my everyday life...
i may be lost, but i wana say thank you for those friends who have guided me through the way...
bring me back to the path where i should pursue..

Thx God n my family,
they are the most important strength that i have in my life..
God given me strength to move on through diffecult times..
they guided me and continue to be with me although i have make so many terrible mistakes..they are always by my side..

life in kampar, make me realize,
there are so many things in the world, u will never know if u dont explore them, then u will miss all the opportunities you may had
i am still exploring and i want to explore more!!

i thought for a moment, what will my life be, what will i be now, if i am not in kampar?
will i be in kl or in other places?
will i turn to be a much more happier girl?
who will i meet?
hat are the challenges and problems will i be facing..?
will all these be the same just like before...?
there are so many paths in my life,
so many options i can choose,
each option will lead me to a different path, that will further bring me to explore and know more about things that i have not known...

there is a quote in chinese: "能解决的事，不必去担心；不能解决的事，担心也没用"

hated myself badly!!!

2009-07-23T02:00:00.004+08:00

just hated myself, even since past 2 sems,
i don know what is wrong with me,
jz wana avoid by not facing the challenges that i m suppose and must face + do them til the very last moment
assignments,exams,homework...all the challenges...everything...

whenever i tell myself " i wana improved",things just getting worse than before...wonder what cause these changes...hv absolutely no idea at all..
i need help, great help...but most of all, i need 2 help myself internally...
jz hope that i can really and able to transform to a new me...i m totally sick and angry of my old self!!!

hope that one day will arive...very very soon....

R.I.P. Aunt Lian

2009-07-14T11:53:00.002+08:00

went back for my aunt's funeral past 2 days
sad... i hv lost my aunt..
but, God has bring away all the sufferings from her
my uncle, cousins n other relative spread her ashes to the sea this morning...

Aunt Lian,
don worry abt us
we will take care our life n will live on well...
You are back to where you belong to...

R.I.P. Aunt Lian
God bless you...
we will always remember you...
bless ur family to be strong although without you in their life...

thx God for everything

2009-07-06T01:06:00.006+08:00

woke up at 7.30am by my fren to go church
it has been few weeks lo, i din go to church for abt one whole month, oh no...sorry...
my head felt dizzy while waiting for church van at the bus stop
but cant sit lo, the seats were wet cz it was raining

i thought that there was no church service today coz its near 8am n there only few church members at the bus stop n the van is not here yet...haha
then was singing worship songs, stil dizzy lo
jz a few more lines to finish, i tot i can stand the dizziness
at last, cant stand it, really feel like fainting edi, jz sat down
then when the singing is done, Shirley thought that i cried or something, she gave a hug, thx ya, luv u ^^ i m alright girl, jz feeling dizzy
then she was like...playing with all sorts of things she could do with her fingers..oh..naughty shirley...haha
hey shirley, i wil take ur student card n cabut ya?...
then had headache from noon til 11 something at night
oh no, whats wrong with my body??
is it a sign for me not to stay up late again...i wonder...

nowadays,
for this sem,
whenever i have any problems, i wil turn to christian frens to seek for advice (correct spelling?), shirley n jialing...big thx to both of u..
and turn to God, of course..thx God

i wil only be calm whenever i pray
i wil be calm whenever i m in church,
it jz feel so peaceful, peace in my heart..it feels like nth is able to bother me no matter how big is the problem when i am in church..
i wil baptist to be a real chritian one day...
Lord has been protecting me ever since i was a baby
i was a prematured baby with about 6 months or slighltly 6 months old
i remembered my dad said before, church members were praying for me for my born
i have been healthy and is alright for 20 years of my life,
full with love and caring of everyone around me and God's blessings,
and of course, challenges and obstacles in my life throughout 20 years,
and yet with the help of family members, relatives, caring frens and God, i am able to overcome all these challenges and be a grown up girl (although stil not fully grown up yet...haha)
very very BIG thx to all of people around me n God

URGENT news, to all UTARians especially kampar campus,
plz donate to

A UTAR student named Liew Hong Leong has suffered serious injuries in an accident on 28^th June 2009. He’s now admitted to hospital and need to undergo an urgent operation.

Your donation is needed to cover a huge amount of medical expenses. You may make your donation at DSA, Block C or Cafeteria, Block C at 11am-1pm and 2pm-4pm starting from 7^th July-10^th July 2009.

plz pass on this msg to all ur frens, thx

--update soon--

凌晨2点

2009-07-05T02:09:00.002+08:00

现在是凌晨2点
看着朋友一个一个入睡
而自己，还在盲目的上网
不知道要干嘛
就只是上网咯

回忆碎片

2009-07-04T17:50:00.004+08:00

今天从我起身
就感觉闷闷不乐
可能是我今天早上想的东西吧
经过那里，还是会想起
躺在床上，竟然全部的，就像电影一样，慢慢的在播放
我们根本没什么，我说过，句号了。。
可是，
回忆, 我还是会想起，只有我会。。
过去的快乐和欢笑，只是，我不知你的笑容，是礼貌的回应还是快乐的表现，
现在只剩沉默，我们就像不认识对方般的，就像是个两个陌生人
我已经没辙了，我不知道该怎样才能停止，
这样，让我很累，很辛苦
我知道，这是要靠自己的，就算别人再说些什么，都无法帮忙的
身边的人，没有一个能代替你

O.M.G.

2009-06-24T10:24:00.002+08:00

O.M.G. what is so wrong with me?
this has been d 2nd time i din hear my alarms n other things that are suppose to wake me up
the 1st time, my class was at noon, so its ok to wake up a lil bit late.

the POINT is that,
i din hear a thing!!! cant even remember switching off my alarms!!!
n so...d result is...i miss my classes today, two tutorial classes , i m so...dono wat to say abt myself
haiz...
nx time:
-cant sleep that late
-not to drag til there is oni less than 3 hours for me to sleep

nothing like this sem happens before,
this sem, its a different sem, as if that its totally different from the previous sems..
how m i gona describe it?
its not jz the assignments, its also abt myself..
jz take example, i cant wake up when my alarms ring,
in the past, no matter how late i sleep or how tired i m
i m still able to wake up,sometimes late..but at least, i m awake..
but now, i cant even wake up...is that sayin that my body is too tired?
i think...i know d answer...

this sem is a sem where i gona do things in different ways, not d same old ways anymore
if not...i hv no idea wat would happen to me...

week 3

2009-06-17T00:06:00.003+08:00

started week 3 of this sem
it seems like there are bunch of things to do
esp assignments, worried that i might not know how to do or cant get to the points...haiz..
the tutorial answers that we present using slides are different from past 3 sems,
previously we might have only 1-2 slides for each question, but now, maybe up to 5 slides per ques..oh no...how to do??...
have a feeling of uni life in this sem, we are going to interview companies, do research and many more things to be done and learnt, so, will this sem be an interesting sem or torturing sem?...will know after this sem is ended..haha

---update soon---

be happy

2009-06-16T17:21:00.003+08:00

just read shirley's post
really happy that she is ok now, recovering for abt 80% from the things that she has gone through,
hey girl, just pray and hope that everything will be ok, ya?
i will pray for u too
don worry ya, you are always welcome to give me a call whenever you feel like wana talk or share whatever, happy, sad or whatsoever, k?
dont ever put unhappy things in your heart, all alone, be happy ya!!
all the best in everything that you are doing!!
good luck n work hard this sem ya, we will both work hard together ya!!

P.S. to who is reading my post right now, i may not know you, but i will hope for all the best in things that you are pursuing!! dont ever give up, light is just in the front, few steps more and you will reach the light ^^

just wana try my luck

2009-06-11T09:17:00.003+08:00

just wana try my luck
went to new town at 8+ in the morning to see whether is there any photostat + printing shop is opened and found out that Cherry House actually opens at 8+. I dont think any other shops open at this hour. Thats good, if i want to print something in the morning, i can go there to print.

meaningful quotes

2009-06-11T00:30:00.002+08:00

You are not responsible for what people think about you. But you are responsible for what you give them to think about you. --Stanley Ferrard

Another meaningful quote:
Don't make promise when you are in JOY
Don't reply when you are SAD
Don't take decisions when you are ANGRY
Think twice, Act Wise

My quote (haha..hope no one quoted this before):
Things may look simple, but sometimes, we are just unable to do it or somewhat feels like too difficult to achieve them.

Facebook test (chinese)

2009-06-11T00:13:00.002+08:00

心比天高的Y头命

这个世界让你看不顺眼的东西太多，让你为自己的不同烦恼不已。有时觉得自己要抓牢所有物质，感情是个屁；有时又不顾一切的去追求感情；将所有物质踩在脚下。是个情绪化的人，占有欲非常强，尤其在爱情上，不给对方足够的时间。很需要别人的感情别人对自己的感情才会让自己有安全感。

对我而言，有一部分还蛮对的。
BUT,感情对我而言绝对不是个屁，我重视的叻，ok?
不顾一切去追求感情，我倒没那么勇敢。
我承认，我是个情绪化的人，会想太多东西, 往往把自己搞得不开心，也让身边的人添加不少麻烦吧。。
我是个需要安全感的人，需要别人给我这份安全感，我真是太依赖了。。。

as for today

2009-06-10T23:27:00.005+08:00

1st, went for discussion of assignments at my fren's hse. We divided the part that each of us will be doing for the assignments and it feels like there are so so many things need to be done, scary sem 2 assignments. For biz research assignment, we have to go a company to have a look on how they run their biz, their operations, products etc. This assignment is different from any past assignments that we did earlier, we were just gathering data from sources such as internet, books n combine them but for this assignment, we are actually going out and explore what the real biz is about. I guess it would be fun, hope so.

2nd, went for taekwondo training. The training had started in week 1 but going for the first time in the sem today, haha. We did some normal exercises,stretching exercises, practice taegeuk (i forgotten taegeuk 4...oh no..luckily, it is jz a practice. so, copy others lo...). Before we started the training, we did slow jog but it was on the cement floor and it was hot coz it is in outdoor. So..my feet got blister. I bet many students got blister too. It was so painful when i got back home but luckily it is getting better now. guess will be ok soon.

--update soon--

knowing nothing

2009-06-10T20:31:00.003+08:00

i rather know nothing and not knowing jz part of something that i know

new haircut

2009-06-10T03:01:00.002+08:00

Gone to a hair saloon and got a new haircut. cant bear with the thickness of my hair and heat in kampar. quite satisfied with my new hairstyle, it is actually quite similar to the hairstyle that i had in jan. will post pic later.

thats all for now, will update soon

my latest updates in kampar

2009-06-10T02:31:00.003+08:00

It has been about 1 week and 2 days in kampar. I went back to kl on last weekend, but too bad, the schedule was too tight, cant meet my friends. Maybe we will meet some other time. So far, everything is ok. It feels like everything has back to its own path and things are running well, so far so good. Going to be busy for assignments for next few weeks..headache..

As for this week, taekwondo club members (including me) are busy for our recruitment drive, we recruited about 17 members on monday and most of them turn up for training on that evening, 24 members went for training. It was the largest amount so far since training started. Great, with advisor's planning and advice (hope correct spelling) and efforts that put in by existing members and new members in the future, I believe that our club is going to be running actively and taekwondo club will be much more alive soon!! really happy for that. Anyway, we will be having our AGM next monday. Whether or not i will remain the post, there are few words I would like to say,I have not been doing my job well throughout the year, I am sorry that I did not contribute my full effort into the club, I am very sorry for that. Thanks for you guys who patiently work things out and do some of my jobs, thank you for that.
However, I am happy to be able to be on this post, learnt everything that i need to and mistakes that i have done, they are a total different experience to me. Thanks to members especially committees, Sukkie and Beng Choon who put their full effort into the club, its all the patient and effort of you guys that make this club to continue till now.

oh no...

2009-05-31T15:30:00.003+08:00

oh no
i din know for such a long time that my old posts in 07 & 08 are actually still here
well....guess i m stil usin d same old account for this blog, so d old posts remained

was reading a moment ago
a feeling as though i have not written about my uni life for sometime
erm...i will update on latest info abt uni life more often lo

lets start from today then
going back to kampar for my y2s2 2day
ooo...
gona miss kl n other places that i have been to during this sem break

so, where did i go?
1st, penang...stayed at my housemate's house, which is very near to queensbay mall. well...u can actually see the name "Queensbay Mall" in front of her house...so, imagine that how close. ate lots of nice & tasty food around penang, to list a few: char kuey teow, o-chean (2/3 times lo), ikan bakar, asam laksa, lobak etc...ooo....wat quite a fun experience where i can taste d food lo...thx to jie(my hsemate)n her family so much for allowing us to stay at their house n sorry for d inconvenience.

2nd, kota kinabalu, sabah...my family n frens went there for 4 days 3 nights. been to many places n got to eat nice food too...haha...so, where hv i been?..cultural village, museum, national park, beaches, restaurants, resort n hotel(hahaha...of course lo, or else where we stay lo...). my dad's old fren, they known each other for abt 20+ years d lo, treated us very nice dinner include lobster (abt rm400+), fish(abt rm 100+), vege, prawn, seafood, n d total cost was up to rm700+ lo for that dinner. thx to uncle ya. oh ya, thx to our tour guide too, for driving us around from city to resorts, to beach, to restaurants, to all the places that we visited...thx ya again...thx to mom's frens, for paying us a visit. almost forgotten, d chilli sauce serve at restaurants, they r all sour coz they are all preserved in vinegar...oh..cant get use at first but now, guess i cant get use to chilli which..taste oni hot...haha...wat a weird me

3rd, of course, mentioned in earlier post, secondary school frenz gathering. so, jz wana tel you guys, thx....really enjoyed seeing you guys n having time together. hope we can meet again,k?

hmmn....dats all from me now. will update soon...

kittens^^

2009-05-31T15:08:00.005+08:00

you guys know that i like cats, rite?
post some pics of kittens that i got from my mail...haha
they are so cute....

Frenz blog list

2009-05-30T20:52:00.004+08:00

Oh no, accidentally deleted my frenz blog list..haiz...anyway, added some of you guys blogs in my new frenz blog list. hope you guys are ok with it (if not, u can just tell me ya). you guys can link me too ya^^ will try to update my blog as frequent as possible (afap)

secondary school gathering

2009-05-30T20:08:00.003+08:00

Went for a secondary school frenz gathering today. It can be consider as the largest gro
up of gathering since our graduation from secondary school, has about 12 of us, guess so. Well, we din go anywhere basically, having quite fun chat at yoyo snack for abt 1-2 hrs(mayb more than that), we even switch table n y was that, coz shiun jeng, chun hwa n i switched to table beside us as we can talk better, mostly, we r just chit-chatting, then dono what happen, all of us just switched table...haha. And of course, not to be forgotten, snap snap n snap photos(too bad my stupid phone...haiz...i cant snap lo), walking around mid valley. I was having a fun time with you guys, some of us hv not meet for so long, get to know wat others r doing right now, see how difference everyone is (before..in secondary school & after...now...haha). Guess wat, Angela went to kampar to study!!...yeay!!..at last someone i knew, will b studying in kampar n she is just staying near my place. hmmnn, gona find her when i m back...haha
After d gathering, i decided,well..just walk around mid valley on my own. bought some stuff in living cabin n hinode shop...present for my frens in kampar, for me...for wat i bought, shhh, its a secret..haha.
going back to kampar tmr, oh, gona miss my frenz lo, c u guys some other time ya.

exam

2009-05-03T15:44:00.000+08:00

exam, exam n exam
haiz...dono wat i wrote in the answer booklet
final finishes on 12 may

Focus

2009-04-22T17:51:00.003+08:00

We can be lost, somehow, in any way,
but we must regain our directions after that.
We must never lost focus and remember the most important things in our lives.
So......remember to go back, to where everything has started and live on.

自寻，自找。。

2009-04-18T15:13:00.004+08:00

看到你过得快乐
我也替你感到高兴
继续这样的心情，好吗？
不要被悲伤和烦恼遮盖你笑容，好吗？
虽然很久，很久，没看到你的样子了
当你珍惜一样的东西时，你会很宝贝那样东西的，
你对喜欢的人也是一样，更是宝贝她送你的东西
这证明了，当时你的心情，你的想法
我并不是什么，所以没多大影响，对吧。。
我宝贝的，只是回忆，没东西来珍惜。。。。

只是写写心情而已，没什么的
答应自己的，会做到的

快乐，是自寻的，
烦恼，同样也是自找的，不是吗？
哈哈

够爱（歌词）

2009-04-17T00:38:00.001+08:00

我穿梭金星木星水星火星土星追寻
追寻你时间滴答滴答滴答答滴身影
我穿梭金星木星水星火星土星追寻
追寻你时间滴答滴答滴答答滴身影
指头还残留
你为我
油擦的指甲油
没想走
你好像说过
你和我会不会有以后
世界一直一直变
地球不停的转动
在你的时空
我从未退缩懦弱
当我靠在你耳朵
只想轻轻对你说
我的温柔只想让你都拥有
我的爱只能够
让你一个人独自拥有
我的灵和魂魄不停守候
在你心门口
我的伤和眼泪化为乌有
为你而流
藏在无边无际的小小宇宙
爱你的我
你听见了吗
我为你唱的这首歌
是为了要证明
我为了你存在的意义
世界一直一直变
地球不停的转动
在你的时空
我从未退缩懦弱
当我靠在你耳朵
只想轻轻对你说
我的温柔
只想让你都拥有
我的爱只能够
让你一个人独自拥有
我的灵和魂魄不停守候
在你心门口
我的伤和眼泪化为乌有
为你而流
藏在无边无际的小小宇宙
爱你的我
爱你的我
不能停止脉搏
为了爱你奋斗
就请你让我说出口
爱只能够
让你一个人独自拥有
我的灵和魂魄不停守候
在你心门口
我的伤和眼泪化为乌有
为你而流
藏在无边无际的小小宇宙
爱你的我
耶
爱你的我
耶
我穿梭金星木星水星火星土星追寻
追寻你时间滴答滴答滴答答滴身影
我穿梭金星木星水星火星土星追寻
追寻你时间滴答滴答滴答答滴身影
我穿梭金星木星水星火星土星追寻
追寻你时间滴答滴答滴答答滴身影
我穿梭金星木星水星火星土星追寻
追寻你时间滴答滴答滴答答滴身影

思考

2009-04-17T00:30:00.000+08:00

每天
抽出几分钟
好好思考
自己的昨天，今天，明天
思考身边的人事物
从冷静地思考
才能得到
心中的答案
从而
过得更好

今天。。提到你。。

2009-04-15T01:57:00.003+08:00

今天跟一个朋友提起你
用写的
写的同时，想起蛮多和你一起开心的回忆
就一些琐碎的事情啦，点点滴滴啦
没想到，还有一些痛的感觉
为自己的行为而感到痛
既然都选择放了，痛一下都没关系
或许对你只是一种习惯，一种依赖吧
相信你也很忙吧，加油！！

放两首歌的歌词在这里，做为结束这篇日记吧：

中间
一个人一整夜
无法入眠
最后决定
只拥抱再见
离开我的房间
灯火全灭
关不上的门
是心那一面
我仿佛听见
你还在门前
曾清楚对你画的线
第一次让泪水变的不坚决
原谅我行装只整理到昨天
总要离开才发现
有一个人在习惯和爱中间
因为每一天见面
才让那想念自然而不明显
到了离别才发现
有一个人在习惯和爱中间
以为说出了再见
连自己都无法骗

一个人一整夜
无法入眠
最后决定
只拥抱再见
离开我的房间
灯火全灭
关不上的门
是心那一面
我仿佛听见
你还在门前
曾清楚对你画的线
第一次让泪水变的不坚决
原谅我行装只整理到昨天
总要离开才发现
有一个人在习惯和爱中间
因为每一天见面
才让那想念自然而不明显
到了离别才发现
有一个人在习惯和爱中间
但转身的想念
连自己都无法骗

左右两边
我们犹豫不决
哪一天再见
当初小小的爱恋
还在不在原点

总要离开才
发现有一个人在习惯和爱中间
因为每一天见面
才让那想念自然而不明显
到了离别才发现
分不清你在习惯和爱中间
下一刻的想念而明天我怎么演
下一刻的想念而明天我怎么演

感情线
我想我已开始有点疑惑
好像被他说中些什么
难道已经没有别的选择
只能乖乖的束手就策
难过的是我们做了选择
是对是错谁也没把握
如果要我放手才能获得
为何在我心中　有舍不得
着你要走　
还装著笑容
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久
如果现在开口　如何挽留
感情这条线　注定只能这么远
不敢相信已经来到终点
想你爱他必定多一些
我们之间不可能再回到从前
我还傻傻画着　幸福线
看着你走远　还继续装笑脸
掩饰折磨我能撑多久
如果现在开口　怎么挽留
感情这条线　注定无法延长一点
你已不在　而我何时才清醒
相信一切都是命不曾放弃你　
我不会说什么默默的承受　
像个男子汉感情这条线　
注定只能这么远

感情这条线
注定只能这么远
Let the words remain unsaid

。

2009-04-13T01:52:00.002+08:00

其实要的答案
已经揭晓了
只是自己还不承认
现在
过了那么久
。
句号
把它画上句号了
从这一刻开始
它只是某一部分而已
而不是主宰的那个部分了
够了
很累了
放下
那美梦的门
不会再打开了
因为锁上了
是没钥匙的
不可以，也不会再开了

终于
跟自己坦白
再见了，永远不见了
那个它
。

你。。朋友。。

2009-04-07T21:56:00.003+08:00

如果你当初没做这个决定
或许你会更辛苦
因为一直勉强自己
现在的你。。相信是快乐的。。
一切，都是自己乱想的。。
现在终于可以理解原因了。。
是个我没想到的原因
希望你不会有那么多的困扰

知道了原因的同时
也给了自己一个答案。。根本没这回事的
所以
真的放了
祝福你。。一直快乐的活下去。。

最近
发现身边的朋友都有问题缠绕他们
自己却帮不上忙
我只能希望
你们的问题。。能够自己解决。。也只有你们自己才能解决
希望你们能够快点恢复原来的自己
加油！！

放开....过去

2009-03-23T13:10:00.002+08:00

過去就過去了吧，回頭不是射手的作风

我要变成拥有这一点射手了
因为
我要放开你了
放开我们拥有的回忆
虽然只有我记得。。

我要
慢慢地走出回忆的房间
走向现实大门了

这段，在另个blog也有的

将过去的点点滴滴
都装到盒子里
这盒子的名字——回忆之盒
希望当再次打开盒子时
会是抱着以淡淡看着回忆的心态
而不是心痛着的看着回忆

我的回忆
一直都会有你的存在
而你的回忆呢？
会否有我。。。还是早已把我遗忘。。
把我放置在一个不重要的盒子
根本不会再打开
甚至不记得盒子是在哪个角落了

看到最近的你。。心事重重
可是我半点忙都帮不上
连个问候都不敢问
如果我问了。。你会告诉我吗？。。

我
还有必要在执著吗？。。
没必要在执著了，不是吗？
还执著什么？。。答案吗？。。
就算有。。那也都是过去式了

算了。。。是时候该放了。。
这次
是真正的走去回忆的房间了
不再在房间里徘徊了。。。
打开现实的大门
勇敢地一步一步踏出去吧！！

射手

2009-03-21T14:05:00.002+08:00

射手座

射手的性格，用一個字來概括，就是快，他們大膽冒險，毫不怠慢的做任何事情，追求速度是射手的愛好，自由奔放也是他們追求的人生。

所以，對他們來說，人就應該直接朝著目標前進，一路的風光就算再美好，也只會是匆匆一瞥，就如同一些不重要的人一樣，只是匆匆過客，並不值得留戀，也不需要放過多的精神在這些方面。

射手喜歡新鮮的事物，好奇心是用在他們感興趣的新事物上的，而不是陳年舊事，所以，他們是不喜歡聽過多的解釋的，在他們看來，解釋就是掩飾，說的太多了反而不好，正所謂物極必反嘛，不拘小節的他們根本不在乎一些瑣碎的事情，所以他們不願意聽，也聽不進那些複雜的解釋，生活就應該簡單一點，過去就過去了吧，回頭不是射手的作風，他們只會一味的向前衝，要他們花時間來聽那些冗長的解釋，還不如繞個彎，他們會朝著解釋者擺擺手，去做還沒完成的事情。

~转贴~

我也好想变成这样的射手

- 大膽冒險

- 毫不怠慢

- 好奇心是用在他們感興趣的新事物上的，而不是陳年舊事

- 過去就過去了吧，回頭不是射手的作风

偏偏我这个射手。。都是和这些相反的。。

如果我能变成这样的射手，

我应该会比较快乐吧。。。

那

现在的我就朝向着这目标出发吧
wish me luck!!!

2009-03-12T23:16:00.004+08:00

Because I'm Stupid (translated by other blogger)

I’m really, very foolish
I know of no one other than you
you’re looking at someone else
yet you have no idea of my feelings like this

I won’t be in your days
I won’t be in the memories either, however
only you, I looked only at you
and the tears keep coming

As i watch you walking past, I’m still happy
even yet you still don’t know my heart
I should stop this and go

I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, I love you, I’m waiting for you

I won’t be in your days
I won’t be remembered either, however
only you, I looked only at you
I’m making memories alone

Loving you is like having a beautiful wound
I look at your pretty smile also
but I cannot laugh with you

I’m thinking about you so much everyday
my heart is hurting in all these sad days
‘I want to see you’ is playing on my lips
alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you

bye bye, never say goodbye
even though I cannot hold you like this
I need you, I cannot say anything more, I want you
I keep on hoping too, I’ll keep hoping….

I really want to see the day
I’m withstanding the pain each day
“I love you” is playing on my lips
Alone once again, crying for you

I’m thinking about you so much everyday
my heart is hurting in all these sad days
‘I want to see you’ is playing on my lips
alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
Baby, i’m waiting for you, I love you

这首歌
可以说是代表我的心情
看来
我还没走出梦里。。回忆里。。
还在想念着你

其实
我一直在等着
以为会等到我要的结果
现在。。等了那么久。。
我也搞不清楚。。自己是什么心情了
偶尔
还真的会无端端想到你曾经说过的话。。
做过的事。。
如果你在梦里。。如果我们两个都还在梦里。。

就像歌词里写着的
我
或许不会出现在你的日子里
连回忆里。。都不会有我的存在。。
我只是。。一个人在制造回忆。。
看到你的笑容
我也无法再和你一起笑了

你的笑容。。一直要是甜的。。
就算是苦的
也要变成甜的。。
快乐的。。勇敢的。。
面对伤痛。。
你要坚强。。要勇敢地面对一切。。
就算你不知道
我。。也会一直祝福你。。
祝你一切安好。。
不要后悔。。不要有遗憾。。

希望以后
如果我们还能再次见面
我看到的。。你的笑容。。还会和以前一样。。没改变。。

写了两个部落格
内容都差不多
可是写了厚。。心情。。还是没两样。。
到底。。我还要在回忆的房间里。。逗留多久呢？。。。

事情

2009-03-04T01:23:00.003+08:00

曾经对自己也对朋友说过

别用自己的想法来衡量事情

对，是没错

但是

有些时候

事实就摆在你面前

你无法再否认自己的想法是对的

对于人，事，物

都不可以抱以太大的期望

这些都不会跟着自己的想法及期待而发生

该发生的，就让它发生吧

不该发生的，就不要让它发生

决定权，可以掌握在自己手上

同时

也可以掌握在别人手上

很多时候

事情的发生与不发生

都只在一线之间

不是吗？

有心无力

2009-02-24T13:33:00.000+08:00

我要做某些事

可是

现在的我

是有心无力了

孤单

2009-02-23T23:25:00.003+08:00

这个blog

连我也差些把它给遗忘了

被点名的人

2008-08-11T11:10:00.004+08:00

被点到名了
没办法咯
一定要回答

1。这辈子最快乐的是什么事？
最快乐的事啊。。应该是当我珍惜的人。。也一样那么的珍惜我。。例如：家人，朋友等等

2。你喜欢的颜色？
没特定喜欢的颜色耶。。黑色。。淡的颜色都喜欢（三心二意啦）。。例如：淡粉红，淡蓝。。

3。你有多久没有傻笑了？
傻笑。。最近都有耶。。想起一些古怪。。好笑的。。就会傻笑咯

4。你最想去那个地方？
好想去台湾。。日本。。新加坡（去了。。还是想去。。哈哈）

5。最受不了自己那个缺点？
一时没想好好就把话说出去了。。在不适当的时候。。说不适当的话。。

6。如果有不开心的事情，你会怎么办？
我会一个人静静地回想起那件事。。不想和别人说话。。如果是自己错的话。。告诉自己不要再犯同样的错误了。。

7。最害怕失去的东西？
失去家人。。和最珍贵的友谊，爱情（如果以后有）

（删除题）8。对爱情的看法？
最近听到几位朋友的爱情问题。。也看了几篇别人的爱情故事。。领悟到。。爱情。。可以让一个人快乐。。也同样的。。可以使到一个人。。非常地伤心难过。。甚至感觉。。没了爱情。。没了那个他/她。。会世界末日。。很难呼吸

9。遇到喜欢的人，你会勇敢表白还是默默关注？
遇到的话。。会默默关注。。表白。。可能在适当的时候吧（还不清楚自己会怎样。。已经很久。。没喜欢人了）

10。说出点你名的人的3个优点？
renise。。友善。。当你有困难的时候，她会伸出援手帮你。。不会忘记朋友（这个可以吗？哈哈）

11。孤独是什么？
孤独是。。身在的环境是那么的多人。。可是却。。融入不进别人的世界里

12。有没有想过一个根本不能实现的梦想呢？
没有想过耶。。想到了再写在这里吧

13。你对你的近况满意吗？
还好。。不想身边的事，物，人有太大的变化

14。友情和爱情, 你会选择谁？
两个和亲情都重要。。不想失去任何一个。。

15。你吃过最好吃的是什么？
祖母，妈妈煮的食物。。都是最好吃的

16。如果能让你实现一个愿望，会是什么？
希望我家人，亲戚，朋友。。都健康和快乐

17。喜欢怎样的二人世界生活？
只要和喜欢的人在一起。。就可以了

18。你很想很想对他/她说的一句话是？
我爱你。。希望我们能一起面对和克服所有的困难。。

19。最討厭的事？
假惺惺的人。。因为我不知道他/她真正的想法

20。你对自己的人生有什么看法吗？
感觉自己非常地依赖别人

new life

2008-02-25T00:27:00.002+08:00

it has been almost 2 months i m staying at kampar
studyin in new environment
first time living outside
its a total new experience and challenge for me

2007-11-27T10:04:00.000+08:00

it has been almost 3 months i hv not update my blog

life is fine at my uni
this week is the last week of my semester 3
next week is my study week
after that exam
although this semester has only 2 papers
but everyday i hv to go to class
you know what...on thurday, there's only one hour of tutorial class
and yet i still have to go...too bad

today...after 2 months didn't update blog

2007-08-25T00:17:00.000+08:00

Today i have mass communication class at 8am, its just student lecture. It means that students are lecturing the class. The topics were covered before by my lecturer and marks are allocated for the way of presentation and information added. After listening to 2 presentations,i followed my friends to computer lab at level 2. We played noepets. Last time i had an account in neopets but didn't play before any games...haha. Recently i created 1 new account, the games in neopets are so funs.

My pet is a cat(miao miao). After 2 days i have not feed my pet,it gets hungry and she(it is a female) is so naughty, it deosn't want to eat the ommellete that i bought for her. So, i had to buy other food for her...haiz

Then we were off to another room for marketing lecture. Guidelines were provided for our final exam which will start after 2 weeks, its so scary as i have not read anything yet!!

I reached home about 1 something, had my lunch and slept at 2 something. Guess what time i woke up....6pm!!! Wow, i have actually slept for 4 hours...

this semester

2007-06-27T22:48:00.000+08:00

my new semester started
this week is the fifth week
tutorial classes should start at week 2
but no venue is available so my uni administrative keep on postponed n postponed it
well, it will be starting next week

today intro to sociology lecture damn boring
so, my frens n i hided elsewhere after the break
however, we still got back into the class n continue the i-don't-know-what-the-heck lesson
naughty rite? haha

i had my management studies mid term exam today as well
i felt like for the past few weeks i really don't have any idea what is happening around me
or i don't know what i had been studying so far
at last, manage to memorise some of the important theories and definitions
the exam was ok
hope can get a bit high mark for this test
next week 2 tests-web page design n writing for business
so wish me luck!!

friday going to present 1 slide only for marketing
n after this have to start preparing for assignments
every subject in this sem has assignment
the total is 6 assignments!!!
wonder how my group members n i going to do it

another blog

2007-05-21T13:57:00.000+08:00

i hv another blog....contents r almost d same...
if u hv time...jz check it out
another blog add: http://www.wretch.cc/blog/kara89

Kara's road lead by Him

Take care little ice cream

有你在-吴建豪

Remember when 2 cat type sis were in kampar??

CF Easter Night Presentation: Are You Still Waiting?

第二步

Lil update

Christmas Party + last CF meeting

I give up!!

Burden

神的孩子 (现在我的Mixpod播着的歌)

黑暗中的亮丽 (Beauty in Darkness in Eng)

ak ouk

♥ Love ♥

爱的翅膀- 马来西亚艺人之家［众星园］Star Park

解铃人还需系铃人

Be grateful always

deleted everything

kara放下了。

to someone

cant feel the peacefulness

思念

emo emo

the 110th post

A prayer of change

i am a bad person...

转帖 (from facebook): 你有没有这样的一位「後台朋友」？

the 3rd week

let's get some rest

midnight

你--淡淡的思念

this week

I need concentration....

now I m daughter of God

scared

一点一点， 一步一步

Lord, i am tired

为什么。。。。

我舍得 不代表我忘记了

心情。。。都在歌词里了吧。。

looong time

a New Life

is back to a life she should be long time ago..after the camp that has really touch her n change her..she is still learning...one day she will be different..hope for that day to come..

recently

HAppy HAppy mood!!

RIP

Please...

first week of Y2S3

cf camp

change your mindset

我们..........

-worried miao-

sometimes

busy+headache weeks ahead

final

姐，对不起

一切，总会结束的

不在这里的你

-miao's happenings-

- helpless miao-

it's week 10!!

给大学及学院生的忠告

jz wana express myself...after 1+ years in kampar

hated myself badly!!!

R.I.P. Aunt Lian

thx God for everything

凌晨2点

回忆碎片

O.M.G.

week 3

be happy

just wana try my luck

meaningful quotes

Facebook test (chinese)

as for today

knowing nothing

new haircut

my latest updates in kampar

oh no...

kittens^^

一点一点，一步一步

我舍得不代表我忘记了